Today was harder than I expected. I kept looking at the empty seat of the little girl in the hospital. For whatever reason, I don't fully believe it right now. I keep expecting to hear that this has been a false alarm or that it is all over with. I can't seem to believe that something this bad is happening to a sweet little kid. Maybe I am really grieving this and that is why. Her brother told me she is coming back to school tomorrow. I think my stomach is going to be gnawing at itself every time she is out.