Monday, August 31, 2009
Word Detectives
Anyway, I also made a supplementary lesson on using context clues which used the story vocabulary. I used it as a pre-reading activity.
What I didn't anticipate was how perfectly the activity lent itself to mystery week. I didn't think about it when I was prepping, but during the lesson somehow the kids all became "word detectives." They used clues found in the sentences to guess the meaning of the words I covered up. It was fun, and at the very least, had them thinking really hard about their vocabulary words.
There are some fun things about the younger guys. I like their really active imaginations.
Now, if I can just get them to put these imaginations to work in Writing...
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Time: The Variable Element in Good Teaching
I was thinking about my perception of time in the classroom today because I was eating lunch with my cousin who is a first year teacher this year. She was talking about having too much time after getting through her lessons and curriculum. I've had that same problem in the past, but recently I have the opposite problem! I have to be aware of the clock and be choosy about what will be included in lessons. Lessons seem to fly by for me now and for my students, but I have certainly had times when every lesson seemed to drag on or I felt like I had too much time in the previous two years.
Space is the same way. Arrangement and organization of students and supplies makes my room feel so much bigger. The walls haven't moved. It's my perspective.
My students' rate of learning is a constant, though. I have to make the time and space given accomodate that.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
My Friend Is Learning to Read
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
The Notoreity Continues
All of these things that go on do bother me. Honestly, it bothers me more that the district refuses to own up. They keep talking about how they took action in a timely manner. Hmmmm, does that nullify the fact that they hired three separate administrators who are facing criminal charges?
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Damaged
This year I like my team--in some ways--even better than my team last year. We all have similar styles and philosophies. We laugh together a lot. We help each other.
This year I feel pretty good towards administration. They seem helpful and have left me alone--which I appreciate because I can only imagine what the former principal told them about me.
Yet, I have some serious self-confidence issues when it comes to teaching which is pretty strange for me because I am generally a confident (some might even say overly confident) person. I don't know what to do about it either. I have this label somewhere in my head that I am a bad teacher and as much as I try not to go there I am always looking for evidence to support that belief. Whenever I can't think of something from my present situation, I tend to try to draw on things from last year. I know this is not a healthy way to think and that it has no benefit for myself or my students but I can't seem to stop thinking this way.
In my dark moments in teaching, every time a transition doesn't go the way I want it to and every time a lesson isn't exactly as I intended it to be I feel like it is because there is something wrong with me as a teacher. It doesn't even matter that things are going as well as they are because I have this feeling that won't go away.
I hate that I am so sensitive that I am bearing major wounds from all the events of last year, but I may as well acknowledge them because I know they are there.
One of my old fifth grade teammates asked me if I would come back next year. I told her that I didn't know and honestly I am not thinking seriously about plans for next year until after Christmas, but I feel like going to fifth grade or going to Middle School might be the only way to address some of my demons. I was told in no uncertain terms that I was incapable of doing the things I wanted to (teaching in fifth grade or Middle School). I could easily do two years in third grade because it would be nice to not have to move everything again or to readjust again, but if I don't move I think I will always wonder if it really is true that I can't.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Big Success with Guided Reading
I am open to using the tape first if I find this doesn't work, but so far I like reading with the tape second for fluency and reading silently for comprehension first.
Friday, August 21, 2009
My Own Little Fan Club
In other news, I heard one of my "Angels" from last year is already famous at his new school. Apparently, one of his Middle School teachers came to find out who had him last year. It seems he is already up to his antics...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Rules Rules Rules
We are getting there, but I think I will like this younger grade much better when we are used to the routines.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Light of Communication
SEI (Structured English Immersion) is the philosophy used in education for ELLs (English Language Learners) in my state. In SEI (at least the model used here), the general classroom teacher is also the English language teacher. There is no work done with these students out of the classroom. I guess this is supposed to be "immersion."
This year, I have a third grade student who speaks only Mandarin. She learned to read and write using characters. She does not know one word of English--not even yes and no. She doesn't know letters. She is such a bright girl, but she is completely in the dark about what I and everyone else in the school is saying.
I am also responsible for teaching this child third grade content. That's almost funny considering the circumstances, but I am. So, I am having to find ways to communicate.
I am using a Chinese to English dictionary to help translate key words, but it doesn't translate exactly because the languages are so vastly different. Today, I borrowed letter cards with animals from kindergarten and I had her write the characters on post-its for each animal and stick them to the cards. I am first going to teach her the words for the animal and then we'll start on phonemes and letter sounds. This went very well today, and I had the idea to make my own letter cards using more practical items. I printed out photos of pencils, buses, water bottles, and a variety of other things. I am going to use one for each letter, then I will have her write the translations tomorrow. We'll do letters and basic communication at the same time. It was like my own little Annie Sullivan moment of inspiration.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Still Perfectly On Track
It kind of messes with my head that things are sooo easy right now. It is hard for me to realize if this is because I really am a better fit in a younger grade. Already, by this time last year, I knew it was going to be a hard hard year. Things are much easier this year, but there are a lot of factors contributing to that.
- I went from teaching a class of 30 to teaching a class of 21. That is nine less bodies to deal with.
- I had 15 behavior concerns coming into my room last year and this year I have 1.
- I have experience dealing with behavior issues, academic issues, and family issues.
- I feel like I am working in a more supportive environment now that the former principal has moved on. I am still skeptical, but I have far less logical reason for that than I had even two years ago with the former administration.
I don't know. In my gut, I think I need to be with an older grade. I can't reason inductively. I need a better reason to think I should stay with younger kids than I had a hard time with one group of older kids and an easier time with one group of younger kids.
I don't really need to think about this now. It's just that I thought I would hate teaching a younger grade and I don't. At times, I really hated my job last year, but I know what I know. It wasn't the age group.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Pinching Pennies
- I am single and don't have any children. I don't have to support a family.
- My Grandparents paid for my college. I don't have loans or debt.
- I don't own a home. I don't have to pay a mortgage yet.
For the first time since I started teaching, money is really tight this month. There are several reasons for this.
- The tuition on my graduate school went up. I just had to pay a 2,000 dollar bill for my Fall classes.
- We had a week that we weren't paid at all this year because of calendar changes. This makes my summer budget even tighter.
- I bought to much random stuff for my own classroom this year. It seemed like a good idea because I am in a new grade, but in retrospect maybe it wasn't such a good idea.
My point is:
- It is really hard to live on a limited budget. Because of state budget issues, I am still making the exact same salary I was when they hired me three years ago (as a first year teacher).
- It is kind of hard to be motivated to pay for graduate school when my degree will amount to approximately 1,000 more dollars a year. With graduate school costing 6,000 dollars per year, it will take twelve years for this degree to pay for itself. I guess I'm not doing that for the money either.
I also get really annoyed when people tell me, "Well, you're not in it for the money."
Of course I'm not in it for the money.
That doesn't mean I don't have financial needs.
That doesn't mean financial compensation wouldn't be nice sometimes.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
A List of Things More Interesting Than My Homework Right Now
2.) Facebook
3.) Blogger
4.) Lost reruns on the computer
5.) Anything in the kitchen
6.) Changing my hairstyle--even though I have no plans to go out tonight
7.) My school e-mail account
8.) Listening to music on Grooveshark
9.) Other books
10.) Textmessaging
and the list goes on.
Graduate School Is Hard Now...
Dear Zealous Motivation,
I have missed you since I finished undergraduate school.
But the real world made you play the fool.
No one cared about straight "A's."
I think that's why we parted ways.
But now I have sooo much to do.
I need you just to make it through.
Come back to me.
Set me free.
From Apathy.
I beg.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Waiting for the Other Shoe to Drop
Last year I learned about every possible thing that can go wrong. It was like extreme testing on all of my procedures. I found every possible loop hole or rather my cherubs did. This year I was ready for a BIG challenge like last year.
So far, though, my students are really good. I have to step back and realize that they are not looking for the loop hole. I have started out everything with such tight procedures and specific rules, but I am going to have to adapt for *gasp* well-behaved children.
I think I will have a lot more freedom to do different things with this group. I don't care what anyone says, it makes a huge difference having teachable kids. It just does.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
We're Famous... Not in a Good Way.
It brings up some interesting questions, though, about the line between an educator's personal life and an educator's professional image. Traditionally, I think people want teachers to be the sort of people we hope children will grow to be, but is that expectation an unfair burden? Who of us is exactly who we should be or who we hope a child would turn out to be? Yet, there are clearly things that could be so unbecoming in a teacher's personal life as to render them inadequate as a professional.
I think deciding what is appropriate for a teacher outside their job is about common sense, but sometimes the line is blurred. Consider the following possible scenarios:
- An unmarried teacher becomes pregnant. She will have to explain the situation, and is there a risk that this will teach her students something that we as a community don't want for them?
- A young teacher bar hops and drinks excessively on the weekends. Will he run into parents? Will it become known in the community?
- A teacher uses a social networking site to post inappropriate material. Will students find it? Parents?
- A married teacher has an affair with another staff member. If it became known, what would this teach the kids?
Food for thought... I don't even know what my opinion is on all of this.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Educational Research
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Say What?
Today, I had the kids writing in their "first week of school journals." Obviously, my friend couldn't write, but I was trying to explain the assignment to her so she could draw her entry for right now. I was just trying to give her the message that she should draw something she likes about school. So, I and the other students at her table were trying to give her the word school. I had my hands over my head trying to show her school house. The kids were all following suit. Then, I tried pointing to myself and saying, "teacher" and the kids and saying, "students." I tried to show her me teaching. It seemed like she got the message, so I tried to draw a smiley face and pointed to her. She looked a little hesitant, but she started drawing.
She wound up drawing several accurate rendering of t-shirts with smiley faces and frownie faces in the center. Whatever she thought I was asking her to do must have seemed pretty strange to her.
Monday, August 10, 2009
One Day Down
Sunday, August 9, 2009
First Day of School Tomorrow
Saturday, August 8, 2009
How Do Things Change So Much?
Friday, August 7, 2009
Ahhhh I am Starting to Get Stressed...
In other news, I have a student who speaks absolutely no English this year. She is sooooo cute, but I really want to be careful that she doesn't feel traumatized. She is such a little one (remember I'm now with kids two years younger than I ever have been) and it must be so scary for her to be thrown into a world where she doesn't understand a thing. Her Uncle told me that she won't even recognize her own name in English. Honestly, it brings a tear to my eye to think about how difficult it must be. It is such a big responsibility for me too. The first year she came to America and her first English class will be something she remembers for the rest of her life. I want to make it a good memory.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
I Am Starting to Like It in Third Grade
Yet, logically it is not my fault. I didn't choose to move. I didn't choose to get upset (despite what the lovely principal accused me of). Believe me, if I could have avoided the embarrassment of crying my eyes out on the last day of school, I would have. I didn't choose to put someone on my old team that wasn't a great fit. This was an administrative decision.
I just feel bad because I had a really good time at Meet the Teacher and setting up some stuff with my new team, but they don't seem to be having the same good time. It is tough to see them having team problems, and see myself fitting in pretty well with a new team.
It is kind of nice though to see a good quality in myself as a teacher for a change. I spend a lot of time wondering if I am just awful at this recently, but I do see now that I bring an atmosphere of cohesion to a team. I didn't just get put on a perfect team; I helped make it that way.
Wouldn't it have been nice if the principal had just acknowledged that when she moved me? Instead of making it out to be pure punishment for me, she could have told me that I would be a positive addition to their team. She made it seem like I would just be less of a hindrance than I was on the fifth grade team. Aye yay yay! I will never understand all that.
For now, I am trying to think about how I can help my former teammates. They've helped me a lot through this and now I need to help them.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
I've Got to Admit It's Getting Better
I actually am in a better place than I was last year. The dark cloud on the horizon of my teaching is gone. I feel a lot freer to believe in myself with the principal gone. I feel a lot freer to reflect on both the positive and negative of last year's experience and to bring the lessons that I learned to another class.
I think it will be a long road to ever trusting another administrator again, but I have a good feeling about the v.p. for some reason. She strikes me as humble and sincere which is a rare quality in administrators. We'll see, but at least there is no relationship with the administration right now which is one hundred times better than the dysfunctional one of last year.
For now, I am taking one day at a time. I'll write about this year's journey as it plays itself out. I pray it will be a smoother path than last year, but already I am starting to see that last year might make me better at teaching and better at life because it happened.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Portraits of My Life...As a Teacher
Part of the reason I started writing this blog is because there is not so much out there about the human side of teaching. As public servants, we suffer a lot of times behind closed doors. We don't talk about the struggles that come with the territory because, well, sometimes that comes with the territory too. Our job isn't all academic and neither are our failures. Sometimes doing this job hurts in a very real way. Today I felt some of that. Yet, it's funny who is paying attention to behind the scenes at a school and who helps. Here are a couple of stories from today.
The school secretary picked up on the fact that I was feeling a little overwhelmed about being back and said, "Now, don't you go and make me cry. These things take time." She went and got me kleenex and in walked the building manager. "Don't be upset," she said, "you have a lot of moms here." I guess I do.
My old team baked me some kind of breakfast sandwich and left it in my mailbox. "Where have you been?!" They said as soon as I walked in, "and go check your mailbox right now."
Maybe all this is out of my system now, but I don't thinks so. The former principal is that voice inside my head telling me that I can't. She's left our school now, but her actions and comments are sticking with me.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Summer Bummer
I saw my roster today and I have twenty-two students. That is it. After the thirty students I had last year, that sounds soooo nice. Here are some advantages:
- only twenty-two papers to grade
- only twenty-two parent conferences (well probably a little more because of divorce but twenty-two kids worth)
- only twenty-two kids in line (maybe I can actually see the end of the line)
- only three-four kids per table with six tables
- with four reading groups they can each be five-six kids
- only twenty-two report cards
I am still mad about what happened, but it might not be so bad having such a small class.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Does Anyone Else Just Want to Get Work Done at the Beginning of the Year?
Last year we had to build "self esteem towers" out of building blocks, and the special area teachers were knocking them down for some reason. We had to dance to Achey Breaky Heart--mind you the dancing was not optional. The year before we had to look at all these pictures and compare our school and ourselves to the picture. I guess there must be some people who enjoy all of this stuff or they wouldn't keep doing it, but I don't know any of them. The principal gives a really painfully long speech. Last year it was about compassion and how she had lunch with some homeless guy. I would conservatively estimate that we waste at least two of our four work days total doing this kind of nonsense.
I just got our staff letter and this year's "theme" for teacher week is "catch an attitude of success." I can only imagine the kind of activities and lectures in store for us. Below is a list of phrases I expect to be ground into my head that week. I will let you know how many I am right about.
- Remember, you didn't get into teaching for the money. It is time to get back to the heart of things. (this is what will be the stock answer when legitimate budget issues come up)
- The attitude you choose everyday will be the atmosphere of your classroom. (there definately is some truth to this, but this will be the stupid answer given when people raise a concern about issues that might arise from whatever thing they're promoting; it becomes like a Peter Pan philosophy: think positive thoughts and nothing bad can happen)
- Your experience will be what you make it. (they will say this one all the time because there is a lot of bad news like bigger classes, no supply budget, possible pay cuts, reduction in support, and extra duty)
- Our neighboring districts are worse off. (they won't say this so directly, but they will frequently remind us that other districts are in a worse financial boat)
It's not that I don't think any of these things are true. They are. It is just that playing stupid games or listening to lectures about it doesn't change anything. I don't need to be told how to think about the problems we'll face this year. I would rather have time to prep. I think right now preparation might be the best medicine for us all.